[Seeing the Notself - in your actual life]
I’ve been thinking about offering a conversation series - waiting out my emotional
Wave (geez that can be a slooow critter).
And have landed on a “yeah why not” 😄
So am now opening up registration for that.
This is HD year 10 for me - the actual anniversary is in July (as is my wedding anniversary 🧐 just noticed that 🙌🏽)
The Notself has been a big feature in the guidance I’ve successfully offered dozens of people over the years - both 1:1 and occasionally in small groups … now I mostly prefer a hybrid model - part private and part conversational with like minds and fellow experimenters.
Being able to witnessess the notself mechanisms that our Minds can and happily (and does) use to hijack inner authority - is, I think, something like 90% of the challenge related to living as ourselves.
The primary awareness to be gained is in the centers themselves - the white/undefined/open ones in particular yes, and also the defined ones.
Did you know that defined centers have Notself themes too?
Then, depending on your chart, gates that bridge a split or ones that would connect your throat can be significant pressure-wise, subject to deep conditioning and worth becoming familiar with.
And Color transference on the personality side (Motivationtion and View) that are at the root of your correct OUTER Authority - is another great (important!) place to begin to see what and who are for you. And who simply isn’t.
But… and here’s an important detail…
This is not something that can be done solo, at least not efficiently. Not so I’ve see anyway.
Rather, it’s the sharing of stories in conversation with your fellow experimenters that has the possibility to open your eyes to new ways that this personal authority hijacking is taking place every day … sometimes -
often! - in the sneakiest of ways.
And your Mind can’t be expected to step aside without some story sharing and witnessing from the outside.
So that’s what I’m envisioning.
A fresh round of conversations. Even 10 years in, my Notself conditioning continues to be discovered and peel back like an onion.
It’s not like it goes away. Nor is it something to make a villain of. Nope. It’s not the bad guy. And neither is our mind.
But rather than torture us to madness and hinder our correct decision making possibilities, the Notself can actually become a source of well - great entertainment 😄
Even when it’s inconvenient 😋
This, imho, is the absolute shortest path through to living as ourselves and ultimately, loving how we’re wired.
So yeah, registration is open.
We’ll begin the conversations the first week of May (for 3 months). It’ll be a very laid back “weekly office hours” come-when-you-can kind of thing.
Part of the time I think I may also be doing art while we chat - just fyi; I sat for the last few weeks thinking about how to do two different types of zooms, (one HD and art, one Notself) but nah, we can do both and as it interests us.
What else? 🤔
Oh! To keep this more custom priced, but also keep the 1:1 part availablelable, I’m concurrently offering an optional add-on private zoom for about 1/3 of the cost of my regular sessions.
I usually keep those solo calls for my annual folks, but I don’t mind bundling one this way too.
So … what ha think? Sound like something you’d like to come play in? Sourcing original materials will not be a problem (you can go in whaever direction you want and me and my open G can effortlessly meet you there.
Ready to have your Mind tweaked in unexpected ways?
Experience epiphanies?
Connet the dots on past experiences and see where your notself has maybe made its mischief?
Have new ideas for improved communication with the people around you? Etc…
Maybe even speak your fears and have them reframed in unique ways.
Hope so - ‘cause that’s what my Outer Authority delivers. 🙂
If none of those things are for you, well, better take a pass 🤗
Let’s see what happens next, eh?
Be sure to comment below or connectct by FB messenger if you want more details or are ready to secure your spot.
Appreciate you!
Andrea
@Carizma22 3/5 splenic P, has said yes to sharing this 😍
I love it when I get to be privy to an ‘experiment progress report’ from one of our Locals members.
Wanna celebrate with me? 🥳🤩🙌🏽
This next one is a tale of Carole’s undefined solar plexus adventures, originally posted in a Projector fb group.
Cool witnessing Carole! 🤗
Thread gist in comments (screenshots) and a somewhat messy screen grab video of the video recommended in one of the OP comments she received included below (above?🤓)
And there’s a short video of @BeyondBeautiful and me first talking about “avoiding confront and truth” which includes a story I often have told about John and the very first real time glimpse I saw this undefined solar plexus dealie irl. Can find.
Blew my mind.
I know there are several splenic Authority folks in here, maybe you have stories to share too?
"Some ideas take decades"
This is pretty inspiring. She reckons she's finally finished her apprenticeship at 70 💜
Fun add-on HD irl example - this was shared in Vanessa's group on FB, The Art of Being You by another appreciative group member (thank you Kathrin 🤗), and I first watched it a few hours ago.
I immediately thought what a great share it would be in here 🤩 but it landed pretty quickly on my 'roundtooit list.
Maybe to get shared here, maybe not. Tbh, the hold up was that I didn't really want to share a FB link in here, so I was looking (investigating) around to see if it was on another platform.
Hadn't found it yet.
Then it turns out that @NaimR wasn't able to view it from Canada (someone is blocking it for Canada ? wha?) and she said as much on the thread in Vanessa's group.
And you know what kicks in?
My Design (19/49 and Markets internal in particular), which had me heading this way anyway - at some point ... maybe... but I always get a little boost of focus from ...
There were three roller coasters 🎢 we had on or radar for the last hour before the rides closed.
Wasn’t to be, but we did find this nice place to sit and wait out the deluge that started right after we grabbed a great smoked BBQ supper.
And ooh it cooled everything off perfectly. And gave us some rest before we found our way back to the car (which was parked on the very first row of priority parking 🥳)
Ahhhh nothing to do, so much nothing to do 🥳🥰🍿
This is a post and audio from @BeyondBeautiful - Valerie Montgomery, Self Projected Projector
"I wanted to make this breakfast and found myself rushing.
Now, you might be interested to know I have Alternating Determination, which means I need to do things “One Thing At A Time,” which turns out to be the title of the song I made up to shift the energy of starting to make this breakfast.
I also have an Undefined Root, so it always feels like I need to get rid of the pressure. Also known as feeling rushed to do things.
It would have been lovely to have my cat fix my breakfast, and I had the time, so..
Also being Self Projected my authority comes out through my speaking, or in this case, singing."
Great awareness and share, thank you Valerie! 💜Not sure that's the right title for this, but it's what came out so I'm rolling with it.
This story began in a FB group. Where many of my stories do.
I can't actually remember the thread or how we ended up in messenger, but the reason we did was because 5/1 Projector with Gate 1 on an undefined G center ... had music of hers to share but hasn't been able to share it so far.
Am still waiting to see if the rest of the story gets shared with me.
So she asked me what sort of music I liked and did I want something more abstract (I think it was) or a vocal cover. I chose vocal cover and she picked this one.
I felt it to my core.
Not sure if part of that was related to some of what she'd already (not intentionally) told me ... 5th line folks can take a lot of patience to draw out - that's been my experience so far anyway.
Some feel interesting enough to spend the energy on :) That's true here.
A kind of sidenote to this is that both my Uranus Opposition (40ish yo) and Chiron (50ish yo) charts carry a 3/5 and it feels like, though I'm not a 5th line - I do sort of get ...
Ajna amplification=increased mental anxiety.
It’s like a catch in my breath, I’ve dealt with anxiety the majority of my adulthood, early teen years (I’m 32 for reference by the way)
But since I began my experiment, switched off the label of the diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder that I have, it’s eased A LOT. A lot. I got off all my psych meds the moment it was pointed out in my chart where they could potentially lie; bipolar and borderline personality disorder I easily and welcomed the dismissal to the Individual circuitry as well as my open sacral and solar plexus; deep attachment issues could reside in that not self open solar, the fickleness of my individual design (57-10 and 28-38) ramping up on transits that hook me to my sacral to result in my “manic episodes”, as I have four hanging gates pointing to that center. I changed to supplements, got off my bipolar medication that was poisoning me. Lithium is toxic to the body so you are required to go in every 3-6 months for...
Annnnd another thing. I have guilt motivation my transference is hope. When I read this, the hope transference sprung into mind and I laughed way harder than perhaps your average Joe would have 🤣🤭
Had to go see which gates are my 2nd lines - I only have 4 🤔
Conscious - Mars 32.2, Pluto 46.2
Unconscious- Mercury 19.2 (detriment), Uranus 6.2
Could be interesting (for me) to read those in the Line Companion.
I can link that in the comments ao you can check yours out too if you’d like :)
“To be lost in the knowledge and think that the knowledge itself can help you, that’s not true. The knowledge is for living.
This is what the 2 is like. It's what they’re like; it’s what they're waiting for.
And everybody sees them and they see they could be this, they could be that and they have no idea unless it's the person that really sees what's there, who calls it out.
And then it’s magical, they’re transformed. They are something else.
I've seen this in people, I've seen this in musicians, and I’ve seen this. It’s just something else. And then you get to see it.
The gift particularly in the 2nd line body when that gift has been nurtured, because the body has to be trained, it has to be properly nurtured, wow, what ...
Yesterday, @mellijae shared a graphic from 64Keys and it reminded me that there's a hashtag in here for #theplanets
Here's a direct search link -
https://planetandrea.locals.com/?search=%23theplanets
If you're interested in planetary placements in your chart - those 11 posts are a great place to begin. :)
by Richard Rudd
"There is one big key to understanding Projectors, and it can only be found by looking at the bigger picture.
We know that statistically, Projectors make up 21% of the population. That means that for every five people, more or less, there is one Projector.
Those are interesting numbers, especially when they are considered within the context of how Gene Pools operate.
There is a mysterious circuit within the Bodygraph that is curiously known as the WA. The WA holds the secret to the choreography of all human gene pools.
One day, when these aspects of Human Design are explored in more depth, we will be able to see how groupings of individual designs come together in the same way as cells bind together to create the organs within our bodies.
For those who baulk at the idea that we have no choice, this is frightening stuff.
The WA shows how different human designs are collectively organised and herded together to perform certain functions within the greater body of humanity.
Imagine then, that humanity is a body like your own body. There are only 4 types of cells, each with their own sub-programming.
At one extreme, you have a small amount of ‘rogue’ cells, independent bodies that are designed to operate outside the loop of the mainframe programming. Ironically however, these manifestor cells are just as dependent upon the whole as any other type. They are simply programmed to appear independent.
At the other extreme, you have a tiny percentage of early-warning cells – these unusual cells have no programming of their own but are designed to take accurate readings of any cellular environment they move through.
In every sub-culture you will find a few of these cells reflecting the health of the local environment. Their role is to warn the overall intelligence of the body of any potential disruptions to the organism. They are called reflector cells.
The bulk of the cellular life of the body (91%) is made up of the two most common kinds of cell – generator cells and projector cells.
These 2 types are designed to interlock with each other. The generator cells collectively create the life of the organism. They are pure energy cells buzzing day and night, maintaining and building the whole.
Projector cells are unique. They have no propulsion of their own, so they drift around on the endless energy currents created by the generator cells.
You might imagine how easy it would be for a projector cell to feel that it had no purpose within the body.
However, each projector cell actually has a very specific purpose (some have more than one), but that purpose can only be realised when certain energy cells (generators) dock in with the projector cell to receive instructions.
Since the projector has no propulsion, it is powerless to initiate this process, but has to allow the generator cells to recognise them and dock in within their own timing. This recognition process takes place through a coded lock and key programme built into these 2 types at birth.
In other words, every projector holds multiple keys that fit an enormous array of locks. When a key does not fit a lock it is very obvious!
Through the knowledge of the WA, we know that the basic genetic unit is 5. These human groupings of mainly generators and projectors are also known as ‘Pentas’.
The nuclear family is a family of five.
Statistically, that is four generators and one projector. As an archetype, the role of this fifth projector is to maintain the stability of the 4 generators.
Right, this next part is where it gets spooky, so hang on to your seats and try and stay with me!…
Just as this fifth projector draws together the 4 generators to form a penta, this penta then takes on a life of its own. It also seeks something greater to dock into, and this is known as an OC16.
Pentas (groups of 5 human beings) seek out another projector, known as an alpha. Alpha projectors naturally dock together with three pentas, making 16 people (including the alpha).
The moment you have 16 people together, you actually have the foundation of an entire gene pool, which then continues to grow exponentially.
Right. I am going to stop there. Whether you were able to follow any of that or not, I am trying to make a point – which is that if you are a projector, you are genetically coded to have others (specifically generators) recognise you and approach you.
This is the foundation of the success of humanity as a species. The projector’s role is pivotal for life to be coherently organised.
But there is a great irony to it all for the projector – which is that there is nothing for them to do until they are recognised.
Every projector knows when the key fits. Every cell in their body lights up.
They also know when it only ‘sort of’ fits.
Those are the critical moments for projectors. If the fit is not perfect, they have to smile sweetly and turn away.
So how long does a projector have to wait? Well, forever.
There is a deep secret for projectors going through their deconditioning – that is, waiting itself transforms the cells.
The relief of not trying to make keys fit when they do not want to fit, releases a huge pressure from the projector’s life.
But it is also clear from my own experience of observing projectors that they are not always able to immediately throw away keys that do not fit.
Sometimes those keys may provide their livelihood, and they have to hold on to them until they find the correct keys to replace them. That takes courage – to wait knowing something is wrong and you are powerless to change it.
I have a vast admiration for any projector going through their deconditioning, and I have also learned that I can never move forward in life without the presence of projectors in key roles around me.
Projectors, if you cannot be patient, there is no hope for any of us…"
This is a little outside of my 'care' zone, but can see the things we've trusted faltering.
I think Human Design is here to offer people awareness to be able to weather what would otherwise feel like impossibly stormy times.
Lucky us 🤗
Also, what a cool picture Chaitanya found 😍
- A
"The knowledge was given so that human beings could be equipped to live in an age in which there was nothing they could trust.
This is what the Cross of Planning has brought us. It’s brought us an age of, within reason, trust.
That the trains will run on time, that the electricity will be there, that all of those things will work, that our children will have teachers in their schools, that the garbage will be picked up and on and on and on.
All the things that the Cross of Planning has brought us, the institutionalization of science and the spreading of all kinds of technologies that enhance the potential for the increase in human population, the increase in the potential of the gene pool, the increase in the potential for the unusual, the mutative.
Human Design is not about the time of the Cross of Planning. Human Design knows the plan. It’s not about that at all. It's about bringing the possibility of the richness of life to the next generation.
If the stellar family teaches us anything it’s that even the gods, even the remotest forces in the stream are concerned about the generations and the movement of information.
There are certain stars in the sky that could not exist until other stars had died. The fact that human beings and certain brain functions, elements in our brain, that can only exist after the death of stars, we are so deeply connected to them. We live very close to one. That is our shelter and our light."
- Ra Uru Hu
