Ajna amplification=increased mental anxiety.
It’s like a catch in my breath, I’ve dealt with anxiety the majority of my adulthood, early teen years (I’m 32 for reference by the way)
But since I began my experiment, switched off the label of the diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder that I have, it’s eased A LOT. A lot. I got off all my psych meds the moment it was pointed out in my chart where they could potentially lie; bipolar and borderline personality disorder I easily and welcomed the dismissal to the Individual circuitry as well as my open sacral and solar plexus; deep attachment issues could reside in that not self open solar, the fickleness of my individual design (57-10 and 28-38) ramping up on transits that hook me to my sacral to result in my “manic episodes”, as I have four hanging gates pointing to that center. I changed to supplements, got off my bipolar medication that was poisoning me. Lithium is toxic to the body so you are required to go in every 3-6 months for a blood drawn to make sure it wasn’t storing too high in your body. (And I hate needles, I’m
Not a good candidate for IVs!)
Once I started a steady routine of quite a selection of vitamins and supplements, all symptoms of my diagnosis stopped. Just gone. No more mania, no more depression. No more overly attached, wild freak outs on those around me from a BPD episode. (“I hate you, don’t leave me” is a book about borderline personality disorder, and the title sums up the hell it puts one through perfectly )
However; I have come to watch where anxiety becomes a real thing. I can’t breathe, I’m constantly trying to catch my breath, and the moment it becomes a deep awareness of “oh shit, this is really happening” I check the transit and see what’s going on. Especially when I’m alone. There are moments where I am with mental or ajna defined people and I know their definition so it’s almost not even a thing. But today I really noticed like oh wow this is intense, and I looked, and my hanging 43, 11 and my 63 are being influenced by the planets/moon today. And suddenly, as it is for my wonderful mind still wanting answers and my investigation fueling me to see if that’s what it was, I breathed out and finally took a breath.
I pay attention to transits where that particular mental activity may…for lack of a better word, burden me. I can combat the physical reaction to the deeper thoughts with some extra vitamin B for a week I’m aware could bring potential anxiety. The difference today I truly tuned into was the intensity of the pressure of my 63 weighing down on the 4 from the moon (it’s always the moon! 🤣) and it’s such a sigh of relief to come to another little bit to learn to watch.
Tonight I’m just rolling through it, listening to the birds on the river. I’m still just shy of 18 months in my experiment and really starting to learn what “watching “ really is, so every tiny piece of new awareness and that “ahh!” Moment is like a slice of cake for my ride 🥰