Art making & my emotional wave
FB prompts a reel, so I make a reel 🤷🏻♀️
One thing I got to really see again -
(discovered this a couple years back when I was doing dot mandala art and attempted a 24x24” canvas - it’s still not done 🤓)
With Emotional Authority, the whole “no truth in the Now” is so undeniable when it comes to making art.
And the longer it takes the more obvious it is.
Example - the first version in this reel, … I was actually feeling pretty great about it right after it was filled in and drying. But as you can see - it’s barely anything (and taking a picture of it helps cut through the wave I think - it’s easier to see more objectively somehow).
The second layer goes on and I’m like - omg - that’s different, maybe a hair better, but …. Nah. 😅
Then (there were hours and days between these steps) … I started just playing with it, I mean, nothing to lose, right?
I did reference a few of the pieces I’d done back during Zentangle season, was so so helpful to have those saved in a binder.
But it’s when I stopped trying to make it into the thing I imagined and just fiddled - THAT is when it came together.
And still… lots of breaks and stepping back to look at it, do next little section, walk away because still not sure … wake up the next day, ready to be even more free with it (read ‘not giving a heck’ at this point) and add the white. #bam
Okay … NOW it’s a thing.
Who knows, might not dig it tomorrow (emo wave be sneaky like that) but it seems like I came to a clarity point and it’s likely to only grow on me now.
Once that wave clears - we’re good.
Kinda can be torture till that moment though. 😜