Art making & my emotional wave
FB prompts a reel, so I make a reel š¤·š»āāļø
One thing I got to really see again -
(discovered this a couple years back when I was doing dot mandala art and attempted a 24x24ā canvas - itās still not done š¤)
With Emotional Authority, the whole āno truth in the Nowā is so undeniable when it comes to making art.
And the longer it takes the more obvious it is.
Example - the first version in this reel, ā¦ I was actually feeling pretty great about it right after it was filled in and drying. But as you can see - itās barely anything (and taking a picture of it helps cut through the wave I think - itās easier to see more objectively somehow).
The second layer goes on and Iām like - omg - thatās different, maybe a hair better, but ā¦. Nah. š
Then (there were hours and days between these steps) ā¦ I started just playing with it, I mean, nothing to lose, right?
I did reference a few of the pieces Iād done back during Zentangle season, was so so helpful to have those saved in a binder.
But itās when I stopped trying to make it into the thing I imagined and just fiddled - THAT is when it came together.
And stillā¦ lots of breaks and stepping back to look at it, do next little section, walk away because still not sure ā¦ wake up the next day, ready to be even more free with it (read ānot giving a heckā at this point) and add the white. #bam
Okay ā¦ NOW itās a thing.
Who knows, might not dig it tomorrow (emo wave be sneaky like that) but it seems like I came to a clarity point and itās likely to only grow on me now.
Once that wave clears - weāre good.
Kinda can be torture till that moment though. š