Koen’s Quote of the day
“One of the things that's so important to understand about this fear of tomorrow is that it's based on what you hear now.
In looking here at the nature of the gates we start with the 57 th Gate, which is the heart of Integration in the sense that it is the awareness gate, and it is the fear gate, so it actually guides what is going to be the underlying quality of whatever the melancholy is going to be.
But one of the things that's so important to understand about this fear of tomorrow is that it's based on what you hear now. One of the things that would very quickly bring me this melancholy quality is when I would go into a restaurant, for example, in the morning to have a cup of coffee or whatever and I would hear the chit chat around me and just hearing that, that it was like, "Oh, I don't want to be here. And I don't want to talk like these people."
So one of the things to understand about melancholy in terms of the 57, is that it's about what you hear that can lead to that feeling of sadness. Now of course, obviously if you're dealing with the not-self, that very sadness can be turned into a deep depression, a deep depression about what people say. And usually it's about what their lovers say. In other words, it's their intimates in their life. What they hear and out of what they hear comes that depression.
In other words, in a sense it is something that has to come from the outside and it triggers it from the outside. But because of the deep acoustic nature of the 57, this is one of those things where it's very, very—the September 11 th attack, I wasn't moved by the buildings being hit. I'm an Aries; I love fire. I wasn't moved by all of that. I thought those are great pictures, and so forth, all of that.
It was the moment that I heard telephone conversations that had taken place with passengers on airplanes calling home, and the last thing they were saying is, "I love you." And in that came this enormous wave of sadness through me, the sadness of the nature of the world. Here amongst all of this hatred and violence, here are all these final love calls from inside the buildings, from inside the airplanes. There's all these people with their cell phones saying, "Goodbye, I love you."
And it was hearing that. It wasn't the pictures; it wasn't the idea that there were thousands of people in the ground that had been smashed and all of that. That did not make me sad, but it was hearing the phone conversations. Instantly my 57 resonated to that, instantly that sadness and melancholy permeated me. And that was the moment that I was moved. It wasn't visual; it was purely acoustic. So it's very important to understand how melancholy originates in Integration, that it's rooted in this acoustic quality, and it's rooted in what you hear.
One of the things to recognize about the nature of survival is that it’s generative. When you look at Integration, what you're looking at is a Manifesting Generator, in that sense, if they were all defined. You're looking at a generative force. This is what keeps us alive; it's generated, we don't create it, it's a response. Life is a response.”
~Ra Uru Hu