Helplessness | I noticed this recently thanks to road rage
Am sharing something from Alok below. It reminded me of this thing I realized was gone - just the other day.
There used to be days where road rage was very real for me.
Maybe at certain points in my wave, maybe my 43s which beg efficiency (and would note it out loud uninvited often enough lol) or whatever; it showed up as just being generally grumpy with the world and driving would only underscore it.
I noticed the other day though that those grumpy days really are gone. And road rage? Nah. gone completely.
DO find myself laughing a lot though and rolling my eyes at the ridiculousness of people now and again - some days more than others.
Have also been watching my 39.5, that “step around the shit gate” that’s in my Design moon - aggravating the heck out of certain folks - this is most days (since I’ve been out amongst’em so much the last few months, there’s been plenty of opportunity for that 🤓😅) …
Which has lead to a few confrontations that have also been hilarious (for me, not them 🤭) - usually in the realm of ‘not following the rules’ and is often about being ‘out of order’ - particularly in line (have so many examples 🤓).
And all I can think is “phew is this next season, as the social agreements continue to fade away, going to be rough for these folks 👀😬”
Alok writes -
"There is something deeply melancholic about realizing how helpless you are in a world where everybody hates to be helpless and hates helpless people.
Because helplessness is immediately associated with dependency and not so nice stuff.
And yet, there is nothing more human than helplessness.
That's how we are when we are born, and that's how we are when we die.
Helplessness is the true condition of our personality, of this perception of "I am" that we speak through, you know?
It's natural condition is that it is always helpless in the face of what the brain is going to deliver to it, it is only that the Not-Self strategies is how we have learned to mentally try to 'compensate' for feeling this way.
When I hear people speak about their "I am", what I hear is people who either enjoy their own helplessness as a human or I hear people who hate their helplessness, sometimes to rather distorted extremes.
That's what I hear.
They enjoy being human or they hate being human.
And if they hate being human, and so many of them do, then they also hate being amongst humans, and they end up wanting to change everyone.
Do you know that story?
And when I look at the chart, that's exactly what I see. I see the light and I see the shadow.
I see the being in perfect alignment that is just flowing okay with being human in Life, and it's surrendered personality inside is saying "woooow.. life is quite something!..".
Or I see a being that is afraid of Life, because they feel that they are not really in control, and there is something inside of them that is telling them that they should (be in control).
And that's where they suffer endlessly.
That's where we all suffer as humans.
When we misuse our mind and try to use what we think we know as if it was power.
This was one of my very first lessons in human design; that knowledge is not power.
Ah, the conscious embrace of helplessness is a prerequisite if you want to experience your signature."