"The 51st gate, first of all, is an Ego gate.
It's a gate of enormous Ego power, but it is not Ego power that has any purpose.
It's not the Ego of the 26; that Ego is all about transforming the community.
It is not the Ego of the 40 that is there to both deny and serve the demands of the tribal stomach.
It's not the Ego of the 21 that assumes its entitlement to control. It isn't. It's just Ego.
And because it's just Ego [51], it can be very offensive.
When you hear people talk about the Ego as a pejorative, they don't like it, they don‟t like Ego beings or whatever, and basically all of that comes from the 51.
If you don't like the bullshitting of a 26, you don't really dislike them because you enjoy being bullshitted. There's an appreciation of the 26th charm and the way it does things and you wish you could be that strong in the way you present things.
When you get to the 40, you get to see that the Ego, even if you don't like it, can really do the job; it can get things done. After all, the 40th gate is the great gate of providing; 40s provide. They provide for their families and their communities.
Even though they do it with their Ego, and you may not like their Ego, you deeply appreciate what they bring, regardless.
The same thing with the Ego of the controlling 21. You may fight that control, but you respect it, generally speaking. And you appreciate the fact that somebody has to go do that job. It's those kinds of things.
What do you do with the 51?
The 51 is just Ego. It doesn't know what its Ego is for.
This is the gate of Shock. The first person to get shocked in dealing with the 51 is the 51. They're the first ones to get shocked. You read those lines and you'll see is not a shocking of others. Everyone thinks it‟s about shocking others; yes, they do.
It is a by-product of the fact that all they've ever been going through is electrical currents. They get shocked all the time. I didn't even get a chance to come out of the birth channel. All of a sudden there is this knife that slits open the top and they open it up and the light shines in and it's like wow, whoa, wait a minute, I didn't even get a chance to see there's a light at the end of the tunnel. The whole sky just opened up. And one month early, I hadn't even finished my vacation.
We get the shock. It's the first thing to understand. The whole thing the Ego is there for is the shock; nothing else.
I'm a 51.5, 5th line exalted. My exaltation is to survive shock, thank you very much. It means all my life that's what I have to deal with.
The only thing my Ego is good for is that when the Voice smacks me, my Ego says, “Oh, ok.” It‟s totally useless. It has absolutely no purpose, which is why initiation and the mystery of awakening is a mystery.
It's not like there is an inherent purpose there. It's not like the 51 has a job to do in this life.
It's not like you wake up in the morning and say, “Let's initiate.” It's just not there."
RA <3
Thanks Ethan Cardinal and Oleksander Vasin