"Life is here to be experienced aesthetically for all its beauty.
My North Node is the 2nd gate, 1st line. It‘s all about aesthetics in life. I detest ugliness. I detest it in all its forms. I detest ugliness in form, in action, in words. I detest it. There is no place in my life in my direction in this life for anything that is ugly.
It‘s not that I don't accept it; ugliness is part of the world. But beauty for me is holy. It's subjective, but it's holy.
And it is this capacity of the 5 to embrace the aesthetic of death itself, to see that death can be beautiful.
That being in a form that dies can be so beautiful and there is no need for the Personality to reflect the decay of the body.
My 93 year old mother five or six months ago in a conversation we were having, I call her up on Sundays and I ask her how she is and how she feels.
And she said to me, ‘this morning in the bathroom I looked in the mirror’ and she said, ‘until I got to the bathroom and looked in the mirror, I felt really young, and then I saw myself and I realized … I‘m ancient.”
It’s one of these things about the separation of the Personality from its physical destiny.
It‘s like me. It‘s hard for me to understand that my body is 57. It really is.
It‘s hard for me to understand that my body is getting old, it‘s deteriorating, and my poor bronchioles are going down the toilet.
But my spirit inside is still sort of 14 or 15. It‘s young.
If I didn‘t look in the mirror I wouldn‘t know how old I was. I‘d have no idea.
It's this separation that is so magical, because who we think we are, Personality consciousness, if the Personality can actually accept in its helplessness that there is beauty in being, it doesn't matter what your state is.
It doesn't make any difference.
This is [the] magic.
But to get there, we are dependent on - not manifesting teachers like me who are 5s who can see this and express it…
It has to come out of those Sacral beings that say to us and teach us that progress leads to two tracks.
One track is the body and it‘s in a terminal pattern.
The other track is the spirit and it may, in fact, be enlightened.
It may, in fact, recognize its helplessness, find its spirit.
And in finding its spirit, begin to tear away the ugliness of the world and see for itself its relative subjective beauty. "
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