A little helllloooo guys check in š¤
Coming up on 2 years in my experiment this march. And finally eased into this process quite well, very natural for my splenic authority. The little odds and ends pull, like a whisper thatās moving my body while questioning in the mind to an extent of āwait, here, this way, check thisā in normal day to day routine.
and what Iāve really cued into of late, is watching my not self decisions run through my mind (specifically my open solar plexus, thatās one that still hammers down louder than the rest)
And because Iām surrounded by majority open solars in my life (quite interesting considering the statistics are a split 50/50 Iām only consciously aware of a handful of emotionals I deal with daily!) I get to see in real time the not self decisions of the open solars around me just get trampled by that fear of confronting the truth.
At work for example, boss is open solar, she hands me every. Single. Piece of confrontation she would rather run from.
It truly is like ripping off the band aid. And I suppose itās so much easier for her to pass it to me, my approach is much kinder and inviting to take in (yaaaay projector jazz, eh?)
As I progress in my experiment, I have a beautiful mirror of life to show me where Iāve come and where ive been. Itās not to say that the not self decisions donāt run rampant in my mind these days (cause theyāre there) but finally understanding the reliability of my authority and having a deeper sense of it has made life quite extraordinary this last year especially.
And thereās an ebb and flow of course, I have my days or weeks where I feel like Iāve been slapped into a concrete wall and Iām stuck there, waiting in the space between the notes, to move through the molasses of my process onward.
Itās such a ride, such a joy. Sometimes I forget Iām having popcorn to watch it. Get caught up, breathe, step back and relax š¤Ŗ