When I started my experiment 10 months ago, I didn’t know where it would take me.
(Surprise!) I was so confused, mind so full of garbage, laying on me “you’re too stupid for this, you’ll never get it” blah blah blah.
I didn’t anticipate such a growth in under a year. My splenic is getting better, I miss plenty of cues of course; but I have this gorgeous 3rd line process combatting my mind, or maybe even teaming up with it to continue the lessons. The lessons!
The deeper my awareness grows, the easier it’s become to decide, plenty of small things occurring and showing off. Head tilts, brows furrowing, the movement toward/away, listening and attuning to the small “voice”. A whisper. Upset stomach, dry mouth, twitching; it’s no longer “anxiety” but what I call pressure- nervousness, uncertainty.
I’ve deleted “mistakes” from my daily lessons. The spicy decisions, now they are where I learn. Occasionally I’ll say I made a mistake, over the smallest, mundane shit. (Eating a jack in the box taco in my car while driving, I think was my last “mistake”) it’s not chalked up in my mind these days, I can recognize the pressure, the mental activity, and let it sit there, not warping my entire being into that little ball of anxiety like from the movie inside out 2 (great movie made me cry I took myself out on a date to see it last summer !)
I’ve eased right into this process, in such a short amount of time. The realest, truest thing I can say I am really excited about is knowing this is just the beginning. It goes so much deeper. I go so much deeper.
And if, in 10 months, I feel this good- no more whack emotions that keep me chained, awake, for days, weeks at a time. Self deprecation is gone- a deeper self love I’ve CRAVED my entire life- the desire to use drugs to escape what is to be me; lifted now entirely.
Then I can only truly imagine what the potential of the rest of my life can really be.
I wake up ready for every day now. For 2 weeks, it’s a huge smile glued to my face.
I am in love with myself. I became my best friend. Human design has given me the empowerment to TRUST MYSELF and THAT is what I longed for my entire life. This is an amazing ride. I love my movie.
P.S. the best part is recognizing even through the lows; as I pitch on an amplified momentary wave, I can grasp myself and wait it out. Anger doesn’t capture me anymore I don’t sit in it. Depression isn’t something I can be fooled by. Last week in this transit, I fell to my knees bawling in grief for somebody I was close to at one point knowing they had a funeral the next day and I cried for them and their family. And it was an intense wave, the first true emotional amplification I was able to really hold to with the understanding it was gonna pass. And it did. There is plenty to keep learning but this is me validating myself so far and I LOVE IT! (Forest hike included cause trees= life for me today. My friend jokes that maybe I’ll end up with someone with the design of a tree cause
That’s the only place I can manage to STFU entirely 🤣)
@Carizma22 3/5 splenic P, has said yes to sharing this 😍
I love it when I get to be privy to an ‘experiment progress report’ from one of our Locals members.
Wanna celebrate with me? 🥳🤩🙌🏽
This next one is a tale of Carole’s undefined solar plexus adventures, originally posted in a Projector fb group.
Cool witnessing Carole! 🤗
Thread gist in comments (screenshots) and a somewhat messy screen grab video of the video recommended in one of the OP comments she received included below (above?🤓)
And there’s a short video of @BeyondBeautiful and me first talking about “avoiding confront and truth” which includes a story I often have told about John and the very first real time glimpse I saw this undefined solar plexus dealie irl. Can find.
Blew my mind.
I know there are several splenic Authority folks in here, maybe you have stories to share too?
"Some ideas take decades"
This is pretty inspiring. She reckons she's finally finished her apprenticeship at 70 💜
Fun add-on HD irl example - this was shared in Vanessa's group on FB, The Art of Being You by another appreciative group member (thank you Kathrin 🤗), and I first watched it a few hours ago.
I immediately thought what a great share it would be in here 🤩 but it landed pretty quickly on my 'roundtooit list.
Maybe to get shared here, maybe not. Tbh, the hold up was that I didn't really want to share a FB link in here, so I was looking (investigating) around to see if it was on another platform.
Hadn't found it yet.
Then it turns out that @NaimR wasn't able to view it from Canada (someone is blocking it for Canada ? wha?) and she said as much on the thread in Vanessa's group.
And you know what kicks in?
My Design (19/49 and Markets internal in particular), which had me heading this way anyway - at some point ... maybe... but I always get a little boost of focus from ...
There were three roller coasters 🎢 we had on or radar for the last hour before the rides closed.
Wasn’t to be, but we did find this nice place to sit and wait out the deluge that started right after we grabbed a great smoked BBQ supper.
And ooh it cooled everything off perfectly. And gave us some rest before we found our way back to the car (which was parked on the very first row of priority parking 🥳)
Ahhhh nothing to do, so much nothing to do 🥳🥰🍿
This is a post and audio from @BeyondBeautiful - Valerie Montgomery, Self Projected Projector
"I wanted to make this breakfast and found myself rushing.
Now, you might be interested to know I have Alternating Determination, which means I need to do things “One Thing At A Time,” which turns out to be the title of the song I made up to shift the energy of starting to make this breakfast.
I also have an Undefined Root, so it always feels like I need to get rid of the pressure. Also known as feeling rushed to do things.
It would have been lovely to have my cat fix my breakfast, and I had the time, so..
Also being Self Projected my authority comes out through my speaking, or in this case, singing."
Great awareness and share, thank you Valerie! 💜Not sure that's the right title for this, but it's what came out so I'm rolling with it.
This story began in a FB group. Where many of my stories do.
I can't actually remember the thread or how we ended up in messenger, but the reason we did was because 5/1 Projector with Gate 1 on an undefined G center ... had music of hers to share but hasn't been able to share it so far.
Am still waiting to see if the rest of the story gets shared with me.
So she asked me what sort of music I liked and did I want something more abstract (I think it was) or a vocal cover. I chose vocal cover and she picked this one.
I felt it to my core.
Not sure if part of that was related to some of what she'd already (not intentionally) told me ... 5th line folks can take a lot of patience to draw out - that's been my experience so far anyway.
Some feel interesting enough to spend the energy on :) That's true here.
A kind of sidenote to this is that both my Uranus Opposition (40ish yo) and Chiron (50ish yo) charts carry a 3/5 and it feels like, though I'm not a 5th line - I do sort of get ...
Question: If you have the 6 Color (eating in dark) is it okay and healthy to eat during the day in the shadow?
Ra: Eating in the day in the shadow—you can eat during the daytime, though it's not a good idea. But the only way you can do that is in an environment that is free of ultra violet light. A shadow doesn't help that.
You can be sitting under an umbrella and the ultraviolet light is going to penetrate it.
The fact is that to be a nocturnal is really to be a nocturnal. It’s very difficult for adults to embrace that. It is quite a challenge and quite a step.
But the only way that you can sort of cheat that is they have UV screens, ultraviolet light screens, the kinds of things that you can put on windows to block ultraviolet light from entering a room. So, if you block out the ultraviolet light and the room is relatively darkened, then yes, without damage you can take sustenance into your body.
But cheating the clock is not going to do you any good because eating during the daytime, regardless ...
Laetitia shared -
✨ The difference between the 2 kind of open aura (and a quick, extra apparition from Manifestors) ✨
“One of the things you have to understand is how sensitive your aura is to a lot of people. If you're a Generator, Generators have enveloping auras. When a Generator walks up to you, before you even get near them, they're all over you. It's like a giant cosmic bear hug, right? They're all around you. And Generators can take in multitudes in their bear hug, right?
But a Projector? A Projector has an aura that is more like a bow and arrow. It goes like this [“wwwwww”, mimic the movement of an arrow with his hand and mouth], and it goes right into the other person. I can be doing this thing and there's a lot of people around, I can feel a Projector at my back instantaneously. It's like, "Whoa!" Because it goes right into you, because that's what you do.
Now, listen to what happens to you. If you're a Projector and you've got two people in front of you, one of them is ...
Yesterday, @mellijae shared a graphic from 64Keys and it reminded me that there's a hashtag in here for #theplanets
Here's a direct search link -
https://planetandrea.locals.com/?search=%23theplanets
If you're interested in planetary placements in your chart - those 11 posts are a great place to begin. :)
by Richard Rudd
"There is one big key to understanding Projectors, and it can only be found by looking at the bigger picture.
We know that statistically, Projectors make up 21% of the population. That means that for every five people, more or less, there is one Projector.
Those are interesting numbers, especially when they are considered within the context of how Gene Pools operate.
There is a mysterious circuit within the Bodygraph that is curiously known as the WA. The WA holds the secret to the choreography of all human gene pools.
One day, when these aspects of Human Design are explored in more depth, we will be able to see how groupings of individual designs come together in the same way as cells bind together to create the organs within our bodies.
For those who baulk at the idea that we have no choice, this is frightening stuff.
The WA shows how different human designs are collectively organised and herded together to perform certain functions within the greater body of humanity.
Imagine then, that humanity is a body like your own body. There are only 4 types of cells, each with their own sub-programming.
At one extreme, you have a small amount of ‘rogue’ cells, independent bodies that are designed to operate outside the loop of the mainframe programming. Ironically however, these manifestor cells are just as dependent upon the whole as any other type. They are simply programmed to appear independent.
At the other extreme, you have a tiny percentage of early-warning cells – these unusual cells have no programming of their own but are designed to take accurate readings of any cellular environment they move through.
In every sub-culture you will find a few of these cells reflecting the health of the local environment. Their role is to warn the overall intelligence of the body of any potential disruptions to the organism. They are called reflector cells.
The bulk of the cellular life of the body (91%) is made up of the two most common kinds of cell – generator cells and projector cells.
These 2 types are designed to interlock with each other. The generator cells collectively create the life of the organism. They are pure energy cells buzzing day and night, maintaining and building the whole.
Projector cells are unique. They have no propulsion of their own, so they drift around on the endless energy currents created by the generator cells.
You might imagine how easy it would be for a projector cell to feel that it had no purpose within the body.
However, each projector cell actually has a very specific purpose (some have more than one), but that purpose can only be realised when certain energy cells (generators) dock in with the projector cell to receive instructions.
Since the projector has no propulsion, it is powerless to initiate this process, but has to allow the generator cells to recognise them and dock in within their own timing. This recognition process takes place through a coded lock and key programme built into these 2 types at birth.
In other words, every projector holds multiple keys that fit an enormous array of locks. When a key does not fit a lock it is very obvious!
Through the knowledge of the WA, we know that the basic genetic unit is 5. These human groupings of mainly generators and projectors are also known as ‘Pentas’.
The nuclear family is a family of five.
Statistically, that is four generators and one projector. As an archetype, the role of this fifth projector is to maintain the stability of the 4 generators.
Right, this next part is where it gets spooky, so hang on to your seats and try and stay with me!…
Just as this fifth projector draws together the 4 generators to form a penta, this penta then takes on a life of its own. It also seeks something greater to dock into, and this is known as an OC16.
Pentas (groups of 5 human beings) seek out another projector, known as an alpha. Alpha projectors naturally dock together with three pentas, making 16 people (including the alpha).
The moment you have 16 people together, you actually have the foundation of an entire gene pool, which then continues to grow exponentially.
Right. I am going to stop there. Whether you were able to follow any of that or not, I am trying to make a point – which is that if you are a projector, you are genetically coded to have others (specifically generators) recognise you and approach you.
This is the foundation of the success of humanity as a species. The projector’s role is pivotal for life to be coherently organised.
But there is a great irony to it all for the projector – which is that there is nothing for them to do until they are recognised.
Every projector knows when the key fits. Every cell in their body lights up.
They also know when it only ‘sort of’ fits.
Those are the critical moments for projectors. If the fit is not perfect, they have to smile sweetly and turn away.
So how long does a projector have to wait? Well, forever.
There is a deep secret for projectors going through their deconditioning – that is, waiting itself transforms the cells.
The relief of not trying to make keys fit when they do not want to fit, releases a huge pressure from the projector’s life.
But it is also clear from my own experience of observing projectors that they are not always able to immediately throw away keys that do not fit.
Sometimes those keys may provide their livelihood, and they have to hold on to them until they find the correct keys to replace them. That takes courage – to wait knowing something is wrong and you are powerless to change it.
I have a vast admiration for any projector going through their deconditioning, and I have also learned that I can never move forward in life without the presence of projectors in key roles around me.
Projectors, if you cannot be patient, there is no hope for any of us…"
This is a little outside of my 'care' zone, but can see the things we've trusted faltering.
I think Human Design is here to offer people awareness to be able to weather what would otherwise feel like impossibly stormy times.
Lucky us 🤗
Also, what a cool picture Chaitanya found 😍
- A
"The knowledge was given so that human beings could be equipped to live in an age in which there was nothing they could trust.
This is what the Cross of Planning has brought us. It’s brought us an age of, within reason, trust.
That the trains will run on time, that the electricity will be there, that all of those things will work, that our children will have teachers in their schools, that the garbage will be picked up and on and on and on.
All the things that the Cross of Planning has brought us, the institutionalization of science and the spreading of all kinds of technologies that enhance the potential for the increase in human population, the increase in the potential of the gene pool, the increase in the potential for the unusual, the mutative.
Human Design is not about the time of the Cross of Planning. Human Design knows the plan. It’s not about that at all. It's about bringing the possibility of the richness of life to the next generation.
If the stellar family teaches us anything it’s that even the gods, even the remotest forces in the stream are concerned about the generations and the movement of information.
There are certain stars in the sky that could not exist until other stars had died. The fact that human beings and certain brain functions, elements in our brain, that can only exist after the death of stars, we are so deeply connected to them. We live very close to one. That is our shelter and our light."
- Ra Uru Hu
