Part of Deconditioning Can (Often?) Include Mourning š
It occurred to me this morning that one of the things that doesnāt really get spoken of much is the mourning that can come with deconditioning.
Oh thereās plenty of relief and ultimately acceptance, surrender, self-love in the mix.
I mean thatās basically the point.
To love what already is. What always has been.
Even if sometimes weāve forgotten.
But on this deconditioning trip, the other side is true too.
Mourning happens on some or many fronts for everyone near as I can tell.
For me the thing that sticks out the most was letting go of the idea that my Generator husband could be less dense (lol for lack of a better description) ....
What I really wanted was for him to be more like me - in some ways, not all.
I got to see that where Iām defined, very few other people are.
And to expect them to have that energy consistent and available, well ... recipe for disappointment.
But that didnāt mean the bereavement didnāt happen.
Maybe interesting to slide the idea in here that - BOTH sides ... are Mind.
Both relief and despair - Mind.
Itās the body that gets to be the boss if we let it.
Being a passenger, watching the movie play out... over time ... recognizing our Mind (and where weāre undefined too imho) is the only remedy.
Lighting a candle š