The Chemistry of Individual Circuitry
I’m guilty of some of these questions Ra outlines below - still 🤦🏻♀️ - after having been together for 30 years; married for most of that.
What’s interesting is, John has 11 (of 26 of the Gate activations that we all have) individual circuitry gates defined in his chart.
And the other day, I heard myself saying, “why are you being such an asshole???”, because he was being terse and short and basically unavailable, but I “needed” (my transference again 🤦🏻♀️) some resolution to that car silliness I wrote about yesterday, so I pressed on - turns out it’s the alternator btw.
You know what he said? (it was this ironic #projectorsuccess moment 😂)
He said, “I dunno, it’s in my Human Design” …. Um yah. Yeah it sorta is 👀😅
Checkmate. I leave you alone. 😂🥳
Read this from Ra on Individuality and what I just wrote should make more sense 🙃 -
“I want to talk about chemistry for a minute. Individuality carries its own unique chemistry. It‘s a chemistry.
The chemistry is something that can easily be described in mundane language as moodiness. The more individual somebody is, the more moody they are. This is the chemistry.
That very moodiness, without thinking of that word as a negative, that very moodiness has a binary potential. That is, on one side is sadness, melancholy, despair, all kinds of things. On the other side is the potential of the muse.
The potential of the muse in the sense of just being creatively absorbed in whatever it happens to be. But this is a chemistry.
In understanding that it‘s a chemistry, one of the dilemmas that consciousness has is personalization, personalizing the chemistry.
Personalizing the chemistry and looking for a reason that you can attach to. This is the great difficulty that individuals
have.
It‘s the same in many respects in a different way, but similar to what emotional beings go through. The wave is moving.
Of course, if you wake up in the morning and you‘re at the high end of your wave and you feel absolutely terrific, it‘s really insane to try to figure out why or to make up a reason. "I feel terrific today because, because, because, because." And there is no "because." It‘s chemistry.
This is the way the chemistry works. It goes up, it goes down; it goes up, it goes down.
But think about what happens to a human being when you identify with what is an illusionary reason for just a chemistry.
You wake up in the morning and you‘re in a lousy mood. And the first thing that the not-self mind does is that it looks for a reason.
"I‘m in a lousy mood because of you. I‘m in a lousy mood because of him, or her, or it," or whatever the case may be. Then you‘re attached to that.
God help those people if you happen to bump into them. "It‘s your fault."
Human beings give reasons to things, and the reasons themselves turn into enormous problems.
So, when you‘re an individual and you‘re moody, what happens is that you get up in the morning and you‘re not in a great mood and you walk out of your space and you meet somebody, and of course they can feel it and see it, because it‘s obvious, it‘s a
chemistry.
They look at that and they look at you and they say, "What‘s the matter?"
I hate these people, they‘re such a pain. What do you mean, "What‘s the matter?" But this is their question.
And you say, "Nothing," because it‘s nothing. There‘s nothing the matter. If I wake up in a good mood or a bad mood, there‘s nothing the matter, it just happens to be the chemistry.
But that doesn‘t satisfy the other person:
"What do you mean nothing; I can tell that something‘s the matter."
"What do you mean something‘s the matter, nothing is the matter."
"Yes, I can tell. What is it? Was it the thing that happened last night?"
-and this thing and that thing.
By the time that other person is through with the individual the individual is getting depressed.
The melancholy sets in and most of the time they hook onto the reasons because they don‘t know why they wake up in a good mood or a bad mood. They have no idea.
Every single day on this plane there are tens and tens and tens of millions of people that yell at each other for no reason whatsoever. But they‘ve made up a reason; they‘ve attached it to the other person.
Then there is this dilemma of uncertainty.
It‘s just uncertainty. "I don‘t know."
And this "I don‘t know" drives other people crazy. "What do you mean you don‘t know? Do you love me?" "I don‘t know.""What do you mean you don‘t know, how can you not know?"
Well, individuals can be like that. It‘s the way that they are.”
Ra Uru Hu