Lora Zuanic shared -
“Mechanics are fundamentally simple. It is about protecting yourself. And it's about understanding something about the nature of the spontaneity that rules your life.
I talk often and have talked often in this clinic about the nature of surrender, what it really means to surrender. And in your particular case, the quality of surrender is really something that is, in essence, very profound. You're here to surrender to the now. I mean to the now. You actually have no other way of working.
It is ironic in a sense, because you have a logical definition and the logical definition, everything having to do with logical circuitry, has to do with patterns in the way patterns get projected into the future. And yet at the same time, because you're so deeply splenic - think about the way the spleen works.
When somebody comes up to you and they invite you - whatever, out to lunch or to do something, or whatever the case may be - in that moment, and only in that moment is what your spleen will deal with. It isn't going to deal with the future of that relationship. It isn't going to look at what may happen down the road. It's only going to react in that moment to what's there in the moment. And in the moment, it may say no. And in saying no, there's nothing to be derived from that or extrapolated out of that.
For example, somebody invites you to go out to lunch and you hear yourself say no - it immediately goes racing up to the throat. You hear yourself in the moment saying no. Now it doesn't mean that those are people that you always say no to. It doesn't mean that at all. As a matter of fact, that very same person can ask you an hour later and the answer could very easily be yes.
Oh, what it is to be splenic, and you know I've been dealing with this now for the 23 years that I've been aware of my design, I'm a splenic being, I have splenic authority.
And it's fascinating about the spleen. And one of the most fascinating things about the spleen is that it cannot be understood by the mind. You know to be splenic in a way is an opportunity to really be able to more easily, in a sense, bypass the power of the mind if one trusts it, because the mind can't help you. There's no way that the mind can actually understand why the spleen says yes or no, at any given moment. It cannot.
As a matter of fact, most beings who are splenic who are unaware of their nature, they're constantly making things up in their mind. That no comes out and their mind is saying “We're saying no because…. We're saying no because of this. We're saying no because of that.” And you know, they make up all of this stuff about why they're saying no, and none of it, none of it, is even close to the truth because the spleen doesn't operate conceptually. It's not dealing with the world in the same way. In essence, what it's really saying is when it says no, it's saying, “In the moment this is unhealthy.” That's all it's saying. It isn't saying anything else. It's saying, “In the moment this is unhealthy.” And it's not saying what it's unhealthy for. It's not saying that where are you going to go to lunch there's going to be somebody sitting beside you that has a flu, or you know, it's not saying that you're going to have an accident, or it's going to be this or it's going to be that. It doesn't tell you what it is. It can't. It does not conceptualize.
And it means that surrender for you is something that's very, very profound, because it's a surrender to immediacy. You know, it's a surrender to temporary truths - because that's what they are. They are temporary truths, nothing more, nothing more, because they can change at any moment. You know, I can absolutely drive people crazy who are in my life because they'll ask me something. And in the moment, I'll say yes. And then 10 minutes later, they say, are you ready? And I go, No. I have no idea why I said yes. And I have no idea why I said no. All I know is that if I don't trust my spleen, I'm going to be one of those people sitting in the hospital that you go and meet and the first thing they tell you is “I just knew it.” You're here to listen to your spleen in the moment, but you're not here to attach anything to that.
Now of course, one of the dilemmas of being a projector is that projectors as they come into the world are obviously deeply conditioned, and you're deeply conditioned by the forces around them. You have an undefined heart center, and the undefined heart center automatically leads to this, “I need to prove myself. I'm not really worthy. If somebody asked me to do something, I'm going to do it because otherwise they're not going to like me,” and all of the stuff that goes with that. The same thing is true for the open emotional system. You know, the open emotional system in its avoidance of confrontation in truth in that situation where the spleen is ready to say no, there is a conflict that arises with the not self mind that says “What do you mean? No. We can't afford to say no. If we say no, they're going to be angry with us, we're going to have to deal with their energy. They're not going to think that we're nice or worthy,” and you know, all of those things.
And you see, this is one of the most difficult things for anybody who enters into this knowledge to grasp. This is about you. It isn't about anybody else. If you're gonna be loved in this life, you're gonna have to be loved for who you are the way you are, there is no other way.”