Junk stuff - Transference & Distraction
“I like the junk stuff. What I mean by that is that in order for me to really be a passenger in this vehicle I have to accept the way in which the vehicle, its mind, processes things, including what it is for me to have the counterpoint of my awareness and the way in which my mind has been conditioned and the way in which it works and looks at things.
I think one of the things about distraction and motivation is that it is not something that rules awareness. I think for most of you real distraction and transference is something that you pay attention to when it's at its extreme, because that's when you're going to notice it and that's when you need to notice it. It's really why it's there. I think one of the things that happens—I know your design—it's similar in that sense that you're a two-center Projector. There is so much data that you're taking in. I think this is really where the difference is.
The assumption is that whatever the junk mental business is, is somehow your own, even when you think you're digging it out of your memory somewhere, or that it is floating up from your memory. But in fact, because of the nature of your openness, you're taking in an enormous amount of stimulation from the other. And that stimulation has a way of altering the way in which your mind assembles information.
For example, somebody comes in to see you and you know this person from the past, even if that past was a couple of days ago, the way in which you remember that person from the days before is going to be influenced by them in your aura.
It's one of these things I've learned about being a passenger. I've very, very aware, because I'm basically reclusive, I'm very aware of what happens to me when somebody else is in my aura. And it's obvious to me that I've changed. They, in essence, don't notice that because this is what they're getting in the moment. But I know the continuity of what it is to be me.
And the most obvious thing that happens to me is that I'm so aware of processing energy, feelings—I have three open motors, so I basically take it in at the physical level. One of the things about being a passenger is allowing whatever is going on to go on and just to observe it. There isn't anything else. Because there isn't anything in that sense that's incorrect. That is, once you're following the ways to be yourself in this process, it doesn't matter then what's happening. It doesn't. It is simply about the way in which you consciously take in that experience; nothing more, nothing less.
And what you witness in yourself isn't necessarily useful or not. It's another catalog of interactive experience and basically we're designed to learn how to communicate our outer authority. So fundamentally that's the process that we're watching. That is, we're watching the way in which our minds are slowly being trained to be outer authority spokespeople without any agenda. And that's quite a process.
And all you can do is watch it. I'm really one for pushing helplessness and incompetence because I'm very aware of my own. I'm so deeply aware of how helpless all of this is, and how helpless I am in all of this. All I have is my awareness tuning fork that aligns me to what's going on so that I can see it; I can participate in this in some way. But when I say the body is the life, it really is. Let it go. Just let it go and enjoy being aware enough to realize that you've let it go. I think that in and of itself is one thrill that's good for a lifetime.”