I overdid it a bit the last few days š¬ This is a perfectly times reminder (even though my root is defined)
āTHE CLARION'S CALL
No Direct Access to the Nature of the Root
Now, let's think about the nature of Root energy. We talked about how certain centers that are undefined, that when they are defined through connecting to somebody else or the program, that certain centers respond in different ways. We've already seen that awareness centersāthe Spleen, the Ajna, the Solar Plexārespond by being conditioned to giving authority to those awarenesses.
And that can be quite profound in terms of what happens to you when you give false authority to an awareness, whether that's the feel-good of the Spleen, the concept of the mind, or whether that is the wave of the emotional system. In other words, that those centers when they are undefined, are always open to, not so much that the conditioning is more powerful, but that the conditioning is taking place in areas where we naturally seek out our authority, so that we can really be conditioned away from our true authority.
When you're dealing with the Root Center, the undefined Root Center does not recognizeāand I know, I have lived this in my own lifeādoes not recognize the defining of the Root Center as such, only its by-product.
In other words, the stress out of the Root Center can only be experienced through whatever channel it goes out of, but it can't be experienced as the Root. I know what it is to experience the Ego, but I only know what it's like to have my Spleen under pressure, or my Sacral under pressure, or the emotions under pressure. In other words, we don't have this direct access to the nature of the Root.
Back Problems.
Itās one of the most interesting processes that I've had in my mystical life. In the early 1980s, I think. Well, anyway I don't remember. I damaged my spine. Sarah was there when that happened to me. I don't know, how old you were, six years old? Something like that, five years old?
I was in bed for two or three months. I lived on morphine. I lived in a dark room all day. I was in absolute agony. I went to all kinds of specialists and they told me that I had damaged, had crushed the disc at the base of my spine, and that they wanted to cut into my spine and to replace it. Put a Frisbee in there or something.
The whole thing about that is that the disc separates the two components of the spine, the bones, and the nerve endings can touch each other. And that creates a great deal of pain and sciatica and all this stuff.
You build up calcium deposits in that, and you can avoid the pain for a certain amount of time, but it's very easy to break the calcium and get into the pain again.
Now, I've been dealing with back pain all my life, since that time. It's one of those things that was there. I didn't do any surgery. Yeah, I toughed it out for about six months. I found a guy who gave me some hints that were very valuable, putting a pillow under my knees and stuff like that.
Then within a couple of years of that, I disappeared.
I end up as a wild man living in a tree. I'm running up and down mountains. Now, the doctors had told me that I would never run again. They told me that I would never lift anything over five pounds again without bringing damage to my spine, and that if I was lucky enough to avoid all that, I'd be a crippled old man. Sons of bitches. So anyway, remember if you tell somebody every day that they're not well, they're not well.
So, there I am running up and down mountains, and lifting things, and carrying things, and going through all of that process.
Now, the physical damage that I took there, I have an undefined Sacral and Root so the kundalini there, I'm not able to handle that if I'm not living out my life properly.
The moment you get ill, the moment you get sick is when you're not living out your Type, and that illness is going to come out of those centers where you're being identified.
So the stress of the life that I was living in at that time, there was an enormous amount of stress and pressure on me to work too much.
My Sacral was being defined. The Root was being defined, and obviously, I was into something that truly was not for me.
The net result of that was that I had to lie down for three months. So the damage doesn't go away.
The difference is that in living out my nature, and in living out my Type in all of these years since then, it's rare that it disturbs me to the point that I am really uncomfortable. It doesnāt.
It doesnāt stop me from walking, running, lifting or any of those other things, because now at least my system operates properly and I'm not putting that kind of pressure on that undefined Root Center.
Now remember, if you don't have access to the Root, it's very difficult to work with it and heal it. It's difficult.
And it's one of the things to see that we are all in a pressure sandwich, and that pressure sandwich is the pressure between the Head Center above and the Root below.
And we're squashed in the middle of that, and we're pressured into, like now, being good ants. Go to work.ā
Ra