We’re all in this conditioning together
“When I was given the knowledge, conditioning wasn’t presented to me as the enemy.
It wasn’t.
I t was simply presented to me, the defacto truth about the nature of the world that I lived in.
That nobody is who they are supposed to be.
That nobody was living out what was their unique life.
That nobody was making a unique contribution to the whole. No one.
Because everyone was lost in the conditioning.
And because I understood right from the beginning that the conditioning is genetic, it is a genetic imperative we have no control over our genes.
Conditioning is not something we can escape we cant.
I remember somebody saying, “are you conditioned now?” and I said, “yes.” What am I going to do, I am in the movie with the rest of you.
We are all in the Maya, we are all conditioned.
It’s all there it’s not about getting away from conditioning. That’s called death.
You don’t want to be conditioned anymore die. It’s the only way out of the movie. It’s also dumb by the way because conditioning is the only thing that is interesting.
The conditioning is everything.
It has been very difficult for me for 21 years to be telling people “the conditioning is bad,” because you have to.
It’s the nice thing about being in a duality there is truth on both sides.
At the end of our journey I want you to get a sense about what mind can be.
What conditioning can mean to you. How you can embrace conditioning in your life fully.
I don’t want to be separate from the Maya. I don’t, I love it, it’s perfect.
It’s my Maya I just want to dance in the Maya.
I don’t want anything to get in the way, I don’t want any resistance, I don’t want any bullshit, I just want to float in the Maya because this is what I am here for.
I used to be tormented by my three open motors, tormented, drove me crazy.
Just the open root. Those of you who have an open root you can commiserate with me. What a trip.
To be not-self and have an open root…
I had an experience when I was about 9 years old. And I am a deeply secretive private person as a kid even. And I kept on hearing this voice and it kept on saying, “faster,” “faster,” “faster.”
I guess it was some kind of hormonal thing cause I was going through a change physical but it was my open root.
And in my family I was surrounded by these root people. I mean heavy duty root people. And I was under enormous pressure and I was the last of four children.
All I wanted to do is catch up, all I wanted to do is be faster than everybody else and there was this “faster,” “faster,” “faster.” It drove me nuts! The moment anything was put in front of me I could not savor it. I couldn’t, I didn’t know how to savor.
That’s an awful thing, oh it is. How it destroys love, how it destroys the most simple of pleasures.
And now? ah I love the root, I am working off all the root stuff you are giving me. I am working off of it, I am an ego being.
I only work through will power. And my energy is more than just simply reliant on my ego as a performer.
This is performance, I need the juice, you give me the adrenaline.
I ride on your root energy. And I am not going faster, I am just riding that wave, its powerful. I am a great admirer of the root eh.
It’s one of those centers I look at and think, “woooooow! This is really something.” All of these pressures that make life possible. All of them these forces that drive the whole life.
Wisdom.
Wisdom is something we all have within us. It’s called conditioning.
This is the joke.
I’ve got a totally open sacral it is natural to me to find wisdom in knowing the mystery of life.
Because I have a totally open sacral I take in the life force. I take in the great generative life force, I take it in into every possible corner, I take it in without prejudice, it just comes in and I read it. And I am in touch with the life force and the meaning of life.
I don’t get my meaning of life from my 43-23 what’s fixed in me.
This is just my natural gift for being able to structure, express the explanation.
But my wisdom comes from my openness, it comes from my open sacral, it comes from my open solar plexus, it comes from my open root, comes from my open head.
I used to think about things that don’t matter and they mattered to me.
Now I think about things that don’t matter and I know they are useful for my students.
Very funny, I have wisdom about all this shit that floats around out there in the head center world.
Some of it is really good stuff but you see I used to think about that stuff in its relationship to me.
Sanity. Insanity. No wisdom. Nothing.
Just the basic stupidity of anyone who is not-self. And there in me lay the potential for this extraordinary wisdom.
My whole thing about pushing you into the experiment is so that you can have the opportunity to find wisdom in this life, not simply find it, express it."
-Ra Uru Hu